I contacted all of her friends from high school. No one's talked to her in forever, it seems. I'm gonna try to have them write everything they know, up to the last time they spoke to her. Someone's gotta know where she is, right?
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Subject: RE: Sicko
User: sickostalker99@gmail.com*
to me
In high school, I (kinda?) knew a girl. Her name was [redacted], but everyone would call her Sicko. She'd picked up the nickname in middle school, from skipping school a lot. Everyone had to assume she wasn't sick that often, yet it still stuck. To an outsider, it sounds like an insult.. but to [redacted], it was a compliment. She liked being known, no matter what for. She was initially a shy girl, but at the same time she luxuriated in the spotlight.
She intrigued me. I know, I know, that's gonna make you cringe and all. But it's true. I mean, I wasn't in her friend group so naturally I hardly got to even hear her talk. Oh god, but when she did... she had a really nice voice, if I remember correctly. You agree, right, P? I'm not just being creepy. One time, I stumbled upon her YouTube channel and she had a video of her singing, and even though it was from when she was in, like, elementary school, it was pretty good. I bet she's just gotten even better over the years.
Alright, maybe the YouTube part was a little creepy. I had a really big crush on her, you know? It was a little irrational because I'd spoken to her, what, once or twice, but I mean, she was Sicko. She is Sicko, or at least I hope. When she dated that scumbag, [j.h.], in, like, 9th grade, I was so jealous. I didn't even know they knew each other. How could someone like her like someone like him? It didn't make any sense. I'm not even saying it out of spite, [j.h.] is a total douche who doesn't deserve even the scummiest girl in the world. And certainly not Sicko.
Then again, he was my friend. He had to know that I liked her, though... it was pretty obvious. What a good friend he was. I had to watch them kiss everyday, and even when we were near each other everyday she never looked at me. She was quiet. I expected her to open up more. I felt bad, thinking about her everyday while she belonged to my best friend. I would fantasize that someday we would all be hanging out and he would leave the room and she'd kiss me.
She seemed like the girl who wouldn't make a big deal out of it. She'd just kiss me and then back away, smiling. And it wouldn't be weird. And maybe eventually she'd do it again, and realize I'm who she really wants. But she never did. I was with him when he broke up with her. He called her and he put her on speaker. He was laughing at her. She was crying and screaming. For a girl who never showed much affection around him, or so it seemed, she was pretty upset.
He was a scumbag. I watched him kiss her worst enemy a couple of days later. I was pissed, but I couldn't say anything. He would say, "Why do you care so much? She was a bitch. What, you got a crush on Sicko?" I'd just sit there in silence. "Oh, fuck. You do. That's why you've been so fucking weird this past month. You know, you can have her. She's fucking weird, dude. She's a freak. She really is sick." I would want to know why, but I'd still sit there in silence.
I felt bad for her. When I saw her, she never looked at me. She would look at him, sometimes, but he wouldn't look at her. Eventually, he'd want her back but she'd already moved on. To another douchebag that would inevitably break her heart. Whatever. In due course, I got a girlfriend. She was great. She was beautiful and funny, my friends and family adored her, she was smart, ambitious, talented.. but she wasn't Sicko.
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